Meditation twice — once in the morning and once before bed. Both for fifteen minutes. The second session was fruitful and I felt a couple of minutes of real concentration. I felt more grounded throughout the day also. I had two cups of decaf coffee because of a terrible headache. No exercise today because I’m sore from yesterday. Weight is 190 lbs.
This is my first day without coffee. I woke at 7 am and meditated for 15 minutes. My mind constantly wandered. It was not a productive session but better than recent ones. I didn’t notice effects of caffeine withdrawal during the day. I meditated for 15 minutes again in the evening. This session was better than the morning one, but I had difficulty maintaining focus. I did the rollers for about 45 minutes and rings. I feel less bloated today.
This is a daily diary. I will keep this diary for one year. After this time, it will be permanently deleted. Its purpose is to cultivate a more consistent habit of mind and to promote daily meditation and physical exercise.
Today I weighed 194 lbs. The heaviest I’ve ever weighed. I am bloated and have a sore throat. I have been eating too much, drinking too much coffee. Coffee has made me unable to meditate. Tomorrow I will not consume caffeine and will meditate for fifteen minutes. In one year, I aim to have a one-hour-a-day vipassana practice.